Everything was so different a year ago.

Sometimes,words don't do our fondest memories justice, do they?

LIKE WHOA

Who would've guessed that working full time and studying part time would be this tiring? I did expect it to be somewhat taxing but not to the extent that I could fall asleep while waiting for a page to load only to wake up 2 hours later in shock wiping my drool. Disgusting, I know. Are we still friends?

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Ohh please, give me a break. I'm functioning mostly like a robot these days trying to juggle work + studies + my possible alternate career. I usually get super tired and sleepy by 10pm. My grandma is probably more energetic than me. Ohh who am I kidding. It's only my second day of work! Now I truly feel for other people in the workforce who chants TGIF every Friday. Weekends are so precious! Will update more when I have more time and energy.
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Here's a picture of me lest you forget how I look like before I start to age the speed of lightning.
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IS IT POSSIBLE

TO EXPECT THE STING TO HURT AS USUAL AND IT STILL HURT THE SAME DESPITE THE REPEATED SELF-WARNING?
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I don't have anything intelligent or witty to say but I kind of see the pattern of updating my blog only when I feel sad and am in the mood to be whiny. Not healthy. I mean, I promised to blog about Japan and Taiwan so that I can still read back and reminiscent when I am 80 and have cataracts. I also can smell Alzheimer coming my way if I live for that long FML.
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By the way, can anybody tell that I've been typing properly? instead of typing my blog post in the half-assed way without capital letters, apostrophe, proper spacing or whatever like this?you know why?cos i got so used to it that it's a huge pain in the ass whenever i have to type a freaking report for assignment *insert annoyed face

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I think I'm borderline obsessed with '2046' and 'In the mood for love'. Look at these GORGEOUS 'qipaos'. I'm hooked.
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I completely did not regret bring brainwashed by my sister to purchase this last year. I'm just kinda sad that I don't get to wear it out more than once a year without being stared at as thought I've just grown a third eye on my forehead :/
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I WISH

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I had the courage to say what was really on my mind..

I could care less about what other people feel or think..

I could go all out without worrying about hurting other people's feelings..

I could turn back time and slap myself with a fish for not being able to squeeze out fun & creative & feasible ideas..

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I could stop feeling like I'm at the verge of losing my sanity.

M.A.G

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Does anybody know where can i get a healthy dosage of creative juice?I am desperate cos I'm THIS close to digging out my brain with a fork out of frustration.This whole magazine module is driving me nuts and I'm just not inspired at all.

Really?

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It's either I do something that I am passionate about and am interested in ,can be sure to bring in advertisers but awfully mainstreamed and common and get F for creativity but A for research and justifications or do something completely out of my comfort zone with high level of risk and I know nothing of and probably get A for creativity but probably F for feasibility.le sigh.

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Sucks to be me right now.

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I've disappeared for a long while because I found it tough to blog about personal stuffs knowing how easy it is for people to stalk another person through the web these days.Making this blog private is a huge hassle and I'm just plain lazy too busy for that.

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I'll be honest.I freaked out a little when I accidentally found that an ex classmate of mine was reading my blog(i walked past her laptop and saw my blog staring back at me from her screen and gasped and looked away pretending not to see it).I set up this blog with the purpose of keeping friends updated on my life and whine here like nobody's business but I started to feel embarrassed disturbed uncomfortable when someone i don't know that well googled my name and read stuffs i wrote about myself.

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creepy,no?

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Ahh well I'm quite sure those ppl would've stopped coming back to check this blog when I've stopped updating for months.So I'm back :D

IS IT JUST ME?

or looking back at photos of yourself taken some time back always seem way uglier than the 'you' now?
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my blogshop's mailing list is still growing even after i stopped the advertising 2 months back.i am happy but woe is me cos i run out of things to sell because i stopped traveling after the hong kong trip :( i probably have 3 to 4 new stuffs left to form a mini collection in time for x'mas.F my customer's L.
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some days i feel really happy thinking about how much i've achieved this year.i've finally started my online business(though it's nothing big and not something successful enough yet) and i think it's the year that i travel the most so far?
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Japan

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with tokyo tower at the background
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Taiwan
i remember than bra(the guy with specs) kept reminding us to pack light and to bring backpacks or small luggage and 3 of us brought a freaking giant luggage each and he almost had a heart attack.

our room looked like a warzone 98% of the time.the other 2% is the first 2 mins we stepped into the room before we unpack/roll on the bed
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best hotel room throughout our trip.it's japanese style suite lol.we even dressed up before we went for breakfast the next day and we found out that the top of the building(which happens to be our breakfast venue) looks like somewhere in a 3rd world country FOL.
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ALISHAN.apparently it's somewhere no cool young adults go.but whatever,we had fun hurhur.
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it's like steeping into the set of twilight.no joke!
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i miss tian bu la :(
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before we wash up and do our daily mask together lol.
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with my bedmate lol.she's good to sleep with cos she wont use much space and stays in the same pose the entire night.
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i can never understand the concept of packing light :( what if i need the ballet pumps when the outfit don't match with the boot?what if the top doesn't match my newly bought outerwear?
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what if i am in the mood to apply my eyeliner with gel eyeliner and i only brought pencil and liquid kind?HAHAHA.just kidding i don't know how to apply gel eyeliner.you know,those in a pot?anyway,not important.let's move on.
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Vietnam
this is counted albeit i was only there for less than a day right?i felt like a walking dehydrated salted fish the entire time there.i was super sunny and the motorcycles there are deadly.crossing the road there was crazy.

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Redang
it rained T__T

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Gz
i miss the japanese restaurant there.they give a generous load of mentaiko om nom nom

old school coke bottle
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no make up day cos we're kinda sick of make up melting in 15 mins
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Hong Kong
was crazy hot when we went there.almost 40 freaking degree celcius.

therefore,no make up again
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gong chai meen!
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hey!i just realised that i brought my duotone(disgusting outgrown) hair to 2 countries and took shitload of pictures *clap clap
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i've also started uni(i know,took me so long.dont get me started about malaysian army) and passed my driving in first try T__T in singapore.what's with the smirk?you think that it's easy is it?you think can give 'duit kopi' ah?
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but some days,i look around and see people my age already in the workforce full time and i take a peep at the balance of my bank account.i won't reveal how much to spare all of you the shock and disbelief but i'm just gonna say that i ought to marinate myself in shame.
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i know,i should save up more since my bank account is as dry as sahara BUT i can't help it!everybody needs to eat right?and when you eat,you need to have dessert as well!i mean,look at that beautiful swirl of a frozen yogurt..and the colourful toppings..how can you not?
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i dont shop alot.it's just occasionally when i need to de-stress or reward myself for studying or working hard.my mum taught me that we need to reward ourselves sometimes so i am just doing my part as a daughter to heed her advice..right?
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in conclusion,I DONT KNOW WHERE ALL MY MONEY GOES TO,I SWEAR!
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okay this post sound way too much like an end-of-the-year-reflection and so pointless at the same time.babai.
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p/s - i feel like bringing my dogs and camera out to snap something but it's raining boo.no good for the camera nor my dogs nor my hair.i think i'm kinda sorta maybe suffering of hair loss problem.I'M SERIOUS!i have so little hair and my hair is very fine. *emo
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ohh talking about this.you know,the first time a hairstylist told me that my hair was fine,i was so happy you could see me doing a little happy dance in my chair.in my head at that moment,fine = of superior quality or appearance.he was trying to say fine = very small in size or thickness.how smart of me.
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k thats all babai for real.

RUNAWAY

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lost.lonely.misunderstood.

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but there isnt a reason for me to feel this way,is there?

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i'll be back.soon.

10 MORE UNIQUE STUFFS FROM JAPAN♥ .
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missed me?here's a super crazy long post ahead!
(btw this is a backdated post.i started drafting is more than a month ago and have been modifying it since..)
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before i start,imma ramble some more about my emotions.it's all mixed up like '비빔밥' bibimbap now T__T
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do you wanna hear the bad news or good news first?my preference is the former first so that whatever the bad news is,i still have hope to neutralise it with the latter and hopefully not feel too depressed from the bad news.okay so i'm gonna go ahead with bad news first.
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yes,i made the decision cos it's my blog and i just asked your opinion for fun.and i sound like a complete moody bitch now because i am having PMS and suddenly the whole world seems to owe me money and i feel fat like an elephant and i think i have all the right to be a moody bitch if i want to.
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okay i think i think i shouldn't blog about them.i just feel really weird these days feeling sad and depressed for no reason :(
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i shall just move on to happier things like memories from my trips.
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10 more things in japan that you can't find here.
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1.crazy complicated subway route.

i'll be honest.if i came to japan alone or with someone who has equally bad sense of direction ahem my elder sister ahem mum too,i'd shit in my pants at the sight of this maze!
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thankfully,my boyfriend went to japan once and his brain works a little like a gps.hehe.
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and the 'densha' was as quiet as the library.i felt damn stressed in it.FYL if your phone starts to ring and your ringtone is some kinda loud dance song.i'm sure the japanese in the subway would be thrilled HAHA.

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the 'densha' looks exactly like those filmed in japanese horror film.i know it's cos it was filmed in japan but i don't know why i felt amazed when i saw the train looking exactly like the one in those creepy films?i dont understand myself sometimes :/
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taken by our best friend called self timer.
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didn't i tell you guys about my boyfriend's hobby of taking photo of me when i'm midsentenced?
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after harajuku♥
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they have this driver in the train that will come out at every stop and rush back in when the train is taking off.so cute HAHA
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yes,i suspect that i am obviously the better photographer.
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2.SAKURA♥ !
this was so unexpected as from research,it's stated that sakura doesn't bloom for long.i thought that since the week that we go is a week before the full bloom,we wouldn't be able to see any sakura.
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with my visa application and all finalised so last minute,the entire packing process was done like a mad woman high on drugs and i sat in the plane to japan with no expectation of seeing sakura bloom.
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this was on the 2nd day.i was excited even looking at fake sakura decor at asakusa hehe.
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quickly grabbed someone to help us take photo with a fake sakura.zomg like damn pathetic that time fake sakura also wanna take photo with -.-
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and on the third day..jeng jeng jeng !it was there in the middle of disneyland's toontown when i was busy being fascinated with whatever mickey's house or minnie's skirt.i thought it was fake at first HAHA.
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cos isn't sakura trees supposed to be at a park or something?
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on the 5th day on the way to tokyo tower,we took a shortcut and walked through a park and saw some gorgeous trees ^-^
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last day at ueno park!whole garden of them O_O it wasn't full bloom but it's okay i'm happy enough T__T it's like walking along a street from some enchanted land,seriously.
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they have hanami party(something like picnic under those sakura trees) and many stalls like this selling snacks.
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3.building with 9 floors of sex shop
yup.that's right.we went to akiba(or akihabara) on the first night cos the boyfriend wanted to check out the gadgets and i wanted to find my polaroid camera.
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on our way,we saw soooooooo many sex shops and one has this weird vibrating,rotating,glowing...thing and will make you feel so puzzled.the weirdest would be the building with 9 floors of sex shops but i forgot to take photo.
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inside one of those costume shops,it says that if you try on the costume and let them take a photo of you in it and paste it on the wall you'd get like,10% off wth O_O
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akiba!like the whole town of gadgets.and sex shops.
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it's also the place that we found our ♥
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some mini pizza in margarita flavour.it was SO good,i swear.your eyes would roll back as you take a bite.I MISS IT! T__T
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4.awesome packaging.

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hello kitty red bean paste snack
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cookies for you?
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decor in a shop in ginza
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we wanted to try bento so many times but always end up getting distracted by other food when it was time to eat.
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things are mostly always packed nicely there.shops are nicely decorated.you can see that packaging makes sucha big difference but i don't see the same effort taken here.i mean,maybe they don't want to encourage ppl to be superficial or they just dont give a half rat's ass but at the same time,aesthetic is sucha huge deal.it makes you want to buy up the entire store.
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real flowers used for a bridal fair
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a flower shop tucked in somewhere in ebisu
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some desserts at a small bakery in shinjuku
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the girls are always dolled up.their hair,nails,make up and clothes are immaculate.they all look like they've just walked out of a magazine!with the latest style and latest hairstyle and make up.
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it's truly one of the fashion capitals in the world as you can see clothes for summer even when it's only the end of winter there and some stuffs might look weird when you see it there but you can see it coming to singapore in a bang 3 to 4 months later.
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felt super inferior please!it's like a crime not to doll up there.i mean,you can if you wanna lose out to grandmothers who touch up their lipstick quite alot too.

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even the mothers there are so pretty!i saw some of the young mothers in disneyland.they don't look messy or angry or crazy.just pretty.prettier than me who hasn't give birth yet FML they have matching clothes with their daughters sometimes which i find super adorable.
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i dont know man.but i never quite felt like i'm the same person after going to japan.i don't know how to explain it but the place has definitely given me crazy loads of inspiration and taught be not to be half assed if i decide to do something.
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5.Disneyland Tokyo Disneyland
i wanted to go to disneyland when i was in hong kong in year 2008 but people kept discouraging me and said that it's not worth it and that i should just go to the one in japan.i mean,do you think that i'm outta my mind?do you think that i would choose to go to the disneyland in hk if i could choose the one in tokyo/florida/paris?
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but 2 years later,JENG JENG JENG!
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it was so surreal.i hate to repeat this so many times.i'm sure you feel like slapping me with a fish at this stage but i felt like i was dreaming.disneyland is truly the world's happiest place.the whole place was playing those happy songs but the queue doesn't make me happy AT ALL.
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play any rides also need to queue for 2 hours WTH?visit mickey's house another 2 hours?maybe i should post a separate disneyland post for tricks that we used that didn't require us to queue.hehe.
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i looked like i was about to die in some of the photos because we both dressed lighter that day thinking that it was gonna be a little warm that day considering the fact that it was pretty warm the day before.
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it was only 6 degree celcius that day and all i had on was a long tank top beneath a thin turtle neck top and a mini sleeveless jacket thing T__T i believed i turned into popsicles several times that day.my nose was threatening to fall off anytime.
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6.vending machines everywhere.lockers.24 hours conveniences store 50m away from each other.
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i think i forgot to take photo of the lockers.anyway,they have lockers of different sizes almost everywhere.it's for you to put your stuff inside while you go shopping so that you don't have to carry everything like a slave around duh'.
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7.food with generous amount of ingredients
the portion you get is usually not very different from the one you see on the display.whereas here,sometimes you get the shock of your life when your food arrives and the huge succulent prawns you saw on the display are substituted with a few tiny shrimp.
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8.cosplayer on daily basis and crazy fashion

okay fine,so i didn't snap photo of them as well but you get the gist.something like..
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and ppl there probably won't bat an eyelid even if you're dressed like this HAHAAHHA
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9.first kitchen
i think that it's their local fast food.have you all tried super ring before?their cheese fries taste like that!and they have mentaiko spaghetti *wipes drool on keyboard
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10.weather.
haha fine so their summer is like up to 45 degree celcius or something and you can die from heat stroke there but i'm talking about the weather in late winter.(stupid point just to post up senseless vain self shot hehe)

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yea,i can never EVER pack light.i don't know what that means.it's just not engineered in me.
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you can go out all made up and your hair curled nicely and it would stay throughout the day :D
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there's this one night that it was so cold,if i'm not wrong, they said that it was 0 degree celcius when the wind was blowing.it was a crazy windy night T__T
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me and the boyfriend had to walk for about 15 minutes from the train station to the hotel and we were talking and laughing about something.you know how you breathe in harder when you laugh right?(or are we the only 2 persons in the world who do that? O_O)
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for some reason,our esophagus and lungs okay maybe even our hearts hurt wth.sorry that details are not very accurate as the trip was half a year ago hehe.and we just kept our mouth shut after that and increased our pace to reach the hotel faster.
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OHH BY THE WAY,I CHOPPED OFF MY HAIR.PROBABLY MORE THAN 15 CM T__T SUCHA BAD MOVE COS I THINK THAT IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SOME ULU VILLAGE GIRL WHO JUST ROWED A BOAT TO SINGAPORE :( GREAT.JUST IN TIME FOR MY BIRTHDAY.FML.